but that's not how it was for me...not completely

I enjoy watching movies with a happy ending. I love the ones with a heartbroken girl/guy who meets a new person and then is given the chance to blow off their ex when suddenly that person wants them again. And as the audience in those stories, we all can see how this new person is really the better relationship. And that's great and all, I wish I could feel that I will have that same sort of happy ending. Really. And I do believe that my life WILL have a "happy ending", I do.

But as far as seeing the ex as a "bad person" or the relationship being "all wrong"....it's been seven months, and I still don't see that. I mean, I see that things went bad, but mostly for things we were each doing independently, which of course had an influence on the relationship, I won't deny that. Am I doing something wrong? Am I not seeing it? After seven months, you'd think I would be able to see more clearly or something. I dunno.

I don't really know where I was going with this.