happiness and sadness

I think I am happier than I have been with my life in a long, long while. Each day feels like a new and awesome journey. My previous depression melting away. I am happier with MYSELF, which I think has a great effect on how I perceive the world around me as well. Happiness comes from within after all.

I can't help but notice that my happiness is coming when I am no longer in the relationship I was in for the past 5 years. Is it because I could no longer use that other person as the source of my happiness that I was able to find it on my own? Or is it because I am free of that person that I was able to pursue it? I am not quite sure of the answer on this one. It does make me wonder though. If it's the latter, I certainly don't want to jump back into a position of having said person in my life again...on any sort of level. If it's the former, I still am hesitant because I don't want to cause myself further mental trauma by following my heart instead of my head.