why are you doing this to me?

My body just doesn't like certain things right now. And seeing certain people's names in a sentence as a 1+1 is definitely not something my body is liking. No matter how much my brain, my heart, my logic tell me c'est la vie......

It still makes me feel physically ill to see them together even when it's just their names typed out on a screen. How on earth could I possibly see them in public?