Thank you, Universe

You know that saying of being at the right place at the right time? I don't believe that's just a coincidence. I believe the universe -if we are open to it - steers us in the direction we need to go. You just have to recognize it and pounce on those opportunities. I'm still a little fledgeling when it comes to this, but each and every day I am striving to be better at it.

Last night I had such an experience. A reaffirmation of the truths I have come to believe in my own life. Talking to people who had those same truth awakenings for themselves. And being at the right place at the right time. I can't even begin to tell you how amazing of a feeling that is. To know that everything you have been doing has been to lead you in this direction, down this path. It's like waking up from an amazing dream and then knowing exactly what path you need to take to make that dream a reality in your waking life.

I believe our collective conscious is becoming more aware than it ever has before. We are heading for a great shift in thought, and those who are aware will be able to adapt to the change that will inevitably come.

Dec 21st 2012

The real reason I am losing weight and getting myself in shape? The coming apocalypse, "just in case".

If it comes, I'll be ready. In shape. Able to survive...if not, I'll still be in shape, there is no bad here.

(Although, just in case it's actually zombies, I feel I should learn how to wield a weapon of some sort.)

destined for greatness?

I just had a thought. That perhaps the reason I am not "thrilled" about my former's new "relationship" (see that? I even put it in sarcastic "quotes") is that I had always kinda had this feeling that I was holding him back. Because I could see the potential for greatness in him. To be a formidable force for change in this world. He had a tendency to be lazy, though and I fed right into that. I think I imagined that if we ever broke up it would be because he would be moving on to more enlightening things leaving me behind. I'd almost made my peace with that possibility actually. I didn't want to keep him to myself. I knew it would be amazing to share him with the world.

But we both fell into the "trap" of domesticity as our relationship progressed. We were spiraling downwards towards something neither of us wanted. Unable to stop - not sure how to change course. So instead we crashed and burned. And what I thought would just be a strong re-boot. For BOTH of us, individually AND together. I had hoped that this would be his moment, his moment to be "free" and to pursue with vigor anything he had let fall by the wayside while in a relationship with me. And I feel like he still has that inside. That he still has that desire, that potential...but instead of going out and seeking it, allowing it to come to realization, he's biding his time in the exact same manner as he did for the last 4 years. (At least that's what it seems like to an outsider) And based off some of his emails, I don't think I am completely off base.

What I hope for him -and the world that could benefit- is that he finds it. The drive. And fully lives up to his potential. Someday at least.