never as it seems

I imagined that this time of year, while it is usually hard for people in a recently broken relationship, would not be hard for me. As my former was never jazzed about all the family time and stuff this time of year requires. I love spending the holidays with my family - but a part of me wishes sometime to have a nice quiet holiday the way I would do it myself. And I am not even sure how exactly that would be. But I know it would be very different than what we do here in my family.

But, despite havinga crown of people to fill in any empty spaces that might have been otherwise obvious - I still managed to miss his presence. I suppose it's only natural, as he was such a big part of my life for several years.

This year, the new year, 2009...I have great hopes for. There are a lot of things I want to accomplish, things for myself. Things I let slide in the past year. Get back to my roots, the heart of the matter, get back to what I love. I feel excited and confident that I will reach my goals. But, I can't just wait for things to happen, for opportunities to come along. I have to MAKE them happen...make sure I open the door wide with welcoming with opportunity knocks. And I plan to do just that.